Dieting and Dating---Both are HELL!!!

Dieting---I've swear to you, I think I've been on a diet for twenty plus years.  And yes, progress has been made, however, with age, it has slowed down alot.  I do very well on the eating side most of the time.  Now sometimes when I take my Ambian---I wake up the next morning only to find that I've had a "few snacks" before I actually  went to bed.  That can range from some chips and salsa, to Progresso Soup!!  I'm really working on this issue.  One, I don't by the chips anymore.  Wine also doesn't help.  And I love love my Merlot!!  I'm just not a "one glass" kinda of girl though and that is just liquid calories so working against me...  SO, I finished off the wine last night, wasn't much left, but it's gone.  I do have a few Limarita's left, but I'm not buying any more!!  Giving up my precious "mommy juice" will be hard---but I can do it!!  I want to lose the ten pounds that has crept on since I got lazy after Mya got sick.  I was still lazy these last past two off days, but I did get the "healthy food" all lined up and planned.  Now, I just got to get back on track with the exercise.  Damn why is that one the hardest thing to do?  I can "visualize" myself doing it---so whats the problem?? 

Now all of this also blends in with the not so awesome dating life that I 've been having.  Here is my question---WHY is it so hard to find a guy who wants to 1) be monogamist---by that, I don't want him sleeping with 5 other women while he is dating me.  Hello!!!  I'm too old to have to face my doctor with an itchy coochy.  2).  Enjoy texting and some talking on the phone---not crazy amounts, just enough to keep the fun going..  3)When it's time to do the meet/greet---it will not be in your bedroom!!  And I'm not going to continue to text you forever.  I'm not getting any younger and the sooner we decide if getting to know each other is on the table--the better off we both are.  No point in wasting each other's time. 4).  I want this guy to be able to hang with my friends or take me out for dinner or even better FIX me dinner...  It's the "little" things that will go along way with me...  Well, there is one thing that can't be little.  Y'all know I'm right.  I'm not looking for "Tommy Lee"---but I want a healthy man with a HEALTHY appetite!!   There are other qualitites, but those basic ones, have been the hardest to find.  I've been doing the "online" dating, I think there lies part of the problem.  But my resources are limited with the schedule I work.  It's not your normal 8-5 hours and some just don't get it.  I do know this, it will happen eventually, when I'm not looking for it and that is just fine with me.  I open and then hide my profile and that's fine too.  Someday's I'm ok with dealing with the "crazies" and other day's, not so much.  However, I have met a few friends along the way too  That's a good thing... 

So wish me luck, say a prayer, cast a spell---cause it's for sure a jungle out here!!!